FEAR AND THE LACK OF FAITH

Having faith in yourself takes courage. 

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For many years I have dreamt about becoming a professional photographer who lives like he prefers. During those times though I have never found the way or the belief that I can actually do it before everything is perfectly in place. Many times while working for somebody else I had the sense of knowing that I should pursue my photography more deeply. I knew that through photography I serve and connect with people the most but it still held me back from going after it 100%. 

After leaving adidas in late 2017 I had two choices, either to find another job or to commit to my own journey. My girlfriend at the time empowered me greatly by saying - … but why do you have to work for somebody else? After thinking about that phrase while sitting on my couch and looking out of the window.. I closed my eyes and went as deep as I could into myself and said - I want to go after my dreams, I want to fully commit to my journey, I have been wanting to do this for years and there will never be a perfect time to begin. I inserted as much faith as possible even when the upcoming months were hazy to say the least. 

In early 2018 by committing myself fully to photography has been the hardest decision I have made in my life. That decision though has already given me so much in return. I am more grateful to the people I work with and overall more of a joyful human being. I am glad that I had the courage to pull the plug and insert the one which has been laying next to it all those years. By becoming more of who you actually are, life tends to reflect that back to you with the things you enjoy and with the people you sync with, it is really weird and amazing. I certainly don’t have everything figured out, but while you can risk it you should definitely take the chance on whatever you are holding back. Things lined up for me in the beginning of 2018 and life presented directions which I can lead my reality towards. Everybody has their own journey and I can say that I wasn't probably ready before to make that move. The situation appeared naturally to me and I followed.

I have faith.

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